Ibadat uski karta hu aur naam tera aata hai

Ek karwaan woh bhi tha
Jab kisi ka saath na tha
Ek karwaan yeh bhi hai
Tu door hokar bhi paas hai

Ek khwaish woh bhi thi
Muskurata rahu humesha kisi ko soch kar
Ek khwaish yeh bhi hai
Thoda toh gam ka ehsas kar saku

Ek haqiqat woh bhi thi
Apne hote hue apne na the
Ek haqiqat yeh bhi hai
Gair hote hue tu apni ban gayi

Ek khwaish woh bhi thi
Do kadam bhi koi saath chal sake
Ek khwaish yeh bhi hai
Tera saath kabhi na choote

Ek khwaish yeh bhi thi
Kisi masoom se pyar ho jaye mujhe,
Ek khwaish yeh bhi hai
Teri masoomiyat ko napak logo se bacha saku

Ek haqiqat woh bhi thi
Kitabo mai kisi apsara ka chehra dhundta tha
Ek haqiqt yeh bhi hai
Ki tera hona ek haqiqat hi hai

Ek fariyaad yeh bhi thi
Us rab ko dekh pau kisi nigaho mai
Ek haqiqat yeh bhi hai
ibadat uski karta hu aur naam tera aata hai

Meri pyari Maa - Mumma

Aisa nahi hai mi mai apni khushi se tujhse door hoon,
Par kaise samjhau maa
ki mai itna majboor hun

Aisa nahi hai ki teri yaad nahi aati hai
Yeh to mujhe har pal tadpati hai

Aisa nahi ki mai wapas nahi aana chahta hu,
Tere sapno ko pura krne mai
Din raat juta rehta hu

Aisa nahi hai koi mil gaya hai
Jo tujhse pyara ho,
Koi nahi ho sakta jo tujhse nyara ho

Mai jald hi tujhe apne paas le aunga mai
Phir tere hi haath se khaana khaunga mai

2 Kadam saath chalte to jaan pate ...

Kuch pal mere saath bita pate
to yeh na poochte ki mai mayus kyun hu.

Kuch andhere ka parda hata paate
To yeh na poochte ki mai itna bechain kyun hu

Meri hasi ke naqab ko hata paate
To yeh poochte ki mai itna muskurata kyun hu

Ek kadam bhi saath chal pate
To yeh na poochte ki mai ladkhadata kyun hu.

Un lehro se aage dekh paate
To yeh na poochte ki kinara kidhar hai

Mujhme apna aks dekh paate
To yeh na poochte ki mai khud se baate kyun kiya karta hu

Tum agar yeh jaan paate ki mai bheed mai hoke bhi tanha kyun hu
To yeh na poochte ki mai har waqt vyast kyun rehta hu

Bas do pal bhi dhang se mujhe dekh paate
To mere dil ka haal khud hi jaan paate
Khud hi jaan paate is muskurahat ke peeche ka

sannaatein ke peeche ki cheekhein khud hi jaan paate

Bas 2 pal bhi mera saath nibha paate
To yeh jaan paate ki woh raah asaan nahi jispe mai meelo tere liye chal gaya hu

Kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai jab peeche mud ke dekhta hu

Kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai
Jab peeche mud kar dekhta hu
Kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai
Khud ko khud se juda dekhta hu.

Saath na hoke bhi
tujhe apne saath dekhta hu
Kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai
jab peeche mudkar dekhta hu.

Woh mayus sa chehra nazara ata hai
 Jo kuch dara hua sa nazar aata hai
 Kuch ajeeb lagta hai
jab peeche mud ke dekhta hu '

Kahin door sab jo choot gaya tha
 Ab sab kuch khud mai simta dekhta hu
Kuch ajeeb lagta hai jab mai mudkar dekhta hu
 Jo bhatakta tha idhar udhar Us chehre ko dekhta hu

 Kcuh ajeeb lagta hai
 jab peeche mudkar dekhta hu
Sabke saath hoke bhi
sabse juda us shaks ko dekhta hu
Kuch ajeeb lagta hai jab
 peeche mudkar khud ko dekhta hu.

Un adhoore khwabo ko dekhta hu
Jinhe tere liye piroye the
Aaj unhe poora dekh
 Khushi se jhoomta hua dekhta hu

 Par kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai
jab peeche mud ke dekhta hu
Socha tha tanha hi reh jaunga
sath tujhe dekh aaj
poora mehsus krta hu

Par peeche mud ke jab dekhta hu to kuch ajeeb sa lagta hai

Woh hausla ab bhi baaki hai

Woh hausla ab bhi baaki hai
Khud ko wapas jeet launga mai

Un sabhi pareshaniyo ko harakar
Uljhano ko suljha paunga mai
Un sabhi yaadon ko mitakar
Kahin door virane mai dafna aaunga mai
Woh umeed ab bhi baaki hai
Khud ko wapas se jeet launga mai

Hua karta tha jaisa ek waqt mai,
Fir se waisa ho jaunga mai
Aaine mai khud ko dekh shaan se apna naam le paunga mai

Woh jazba ab bhi baaki hai
Sab kuch theek kar paunga mai

Kamyabi ka geet gunguna kar
Chehre ka shikan mita paunga mai
Woh umeed ab bhi baaki hai
Gir kar sambhal jaunga mai

Un parindo ki uchaaiyo ko chookar
Thoda aur oocha ud jaunga mai
Ek umeed ab bhi baaki hai
Gir kar sambhal jaunga mai
Khud ko wapas jeet launga mai

Tera ehsas hai !!

Sone ki koshih to bahut ki 
par so nahi paya, 
Teri yaado ne mujhe 
har pal har lamha sataya.. 

Lamha kat ta nahi 
yeh intezar ka, 
Mujhko to rehta hai intezar 
Bas Tere deedar ka !! 

Samjhata hu ise bahut, 
Ki abhi woh tere pass nahi, 
To kehta hai palat ke mujhe, 
Mehsoos krke dekh use, 
Woh hai sirf tere aas paas yahin !! 

Deewanepan ki us raah pe 
Chalna mera maqsad na tha, 
Dil lagi mai woh kar gaya 
Jo karna mere bas mai na tha!! 

Kaise samjhau is bewafa dil ko 
Jo mera hokar bhi ,mera na ho raha 
Yeh to teri chahat mai dooba, 
Madhosh ho kar so raha !!!

Self Respect

I jumped off my bed.
With my left hand i was rubbing my eyes and with the spare one, I tried to open the lamp.
It took 3 or 4 blind movements to open it. Room was unusually hotter.
Sweat beads were coming out of my whole body and the breath got as heavy as stone.
I saw the shadow of mine on the right wall.it was akin to hulk. The same hulk i saw in nightmare just a few minutes ago.

My hands were tied by iron chain and i was bent on my knees.
I felt myself as a criminal standing completely hopeless and naked in front of him.
He interrogated me whether i know the reasons that why he took me there in the hell.

I hadn't made any sins in the past but still for the safe side. I recalled a few questions.

Had i killed someone? My soul replied with no

Had i raped some one?
Again it replied with no.

I shook my head as high ad i could at that time. But my eyes reached his abdomen only.
He gave me tip off to remember the since i would have made since 10th September
Oh Jesus, it was da day i tied myself in relationship with her. Now i was sure he wanted me to remind something related to her.
But i gave her the purest form of mine and never argued with her.
I accepted her every decision but what point i missed.
I had no clue at that time and i wouldn't be knowing it if i hadn't folded my hands and begged him to absolve me from my sins in case i made so.

He lowered his hands and placed them on mine.
They were as large as an oak tree but as firm as new born baby. He said -"You gave her your best at the expense of your dignity.
You had put your own self respect at stake because of the risk of losing her.
It is absurd because the respect which you gambled was never yours. It is what your soul earned in the cycle of karma. Soul is a child of god and you insulted god indirectly.
At this time you are in dreams or may be nightmare. But soon you will reach your materialistic world. But the decision will be all yours whether to live for your soul or not. I will come soon to remind you again "